I'm such a glutton for punishment. Pain is such comfort. Nothing comes from satisfaction. Everything interesting is born of torture.
Another moment and another chance has passed, as the sun sets deep in the past. Another day has been given to the mass as we all fall into slumber still wearing our mask. None of the moments of true longing ever really last; and before midnight strikes, visions of you are what I see last.
Be as it may I did not think of you today.. I did not sing or sway I got through the day. Light shined it's way even though I expected dismay. You were a distant voice, a memory on it's way. I'm thankful that I did not think of you today.
Art work by: MadamCz If only I were blind enough to not have seen your eyes. Only if we were smart enough to avoid hiding behind lies. Seeing the tall shadows that follow. Dark words to stay afloat in waters so shallow. Send me....... A life raft to sail with on a morning so narrow.... Continue Reading →
Freckles and Flowers... I could stare at them for hours... Surely they glow after Spring Showers... Might be, could they miss me? Might be, they grow freely? Freckles and Flowers, I could stare at them for hours.
Vibrations heard from miles away. Validation strong enough to make one stay. Simply acknowledged by the words you say. Understood through the wires through the sounds you relay. Tones of truth leaving veils of dismay. Seemingly, half truths are easier to portray. Between space and sound passions ignite under a perfect disarray; quicker than... Continue Reading →
Thank you Mom for not beating me as much as you probably wanted to.Thank you for doing all that you could do.Thank you for not doing any less and thank you for picking up the pieces to all of my mess.I could never thank you enough nor will I ever know the full spectrum of... Continue Reading →
Photo by Bryan Geraldo on Pexels.com The Fray Lying with your ghost keeps lonely at bay; Oh how I long for it through out the day. Many worlds stand in our way, leaving me ravished for slumber as the sky falls into the gray. Oh Mr. Ghost, please say you will stay. Please hold me... Continue Reading →
Commodity oddity, none of us are odder than thee...Forget about your pain, it is all the gain.You're nothing but your Name.Commodities, oddities...Only darkness births These.Sins of our past feed the trees...Commodity Oddity feeds our list,fill us up, lest we turn to dust. Commodities oddities, unrighteousness is all the seas, your vanity is all that it... Continue Reading →
Oh, how I weep as on this road so hollow and deep. A tear for each leaf.
Nothing of these emotions are real...Nor is this heart you steal.
Mama, there are so many lessons that you taught me as a child but one of my favorite memories is when you taught me how to smile. This one is for you. You taught me how to show just enough light so that they might want more...Isolated muscle movements that dangle at the edge of... Continue Reading →
May the artic ice take it's tones... Allow the freeze to reach your bones… Brace yourself for a pain that rightfully belongs... My shards shall reach through your lungs... No warmth to avail... God help the pain that shall prevail... A suffering straight from hell... Never was there a warning to entail... Nor ever a... Continue Reading →
Nervous I
Rhythm and flow become out of control… Studder and stammering is a sound to behold… Feelings of uncertainty dominate… How do I still practice restraint? You leave me with such bewilderment, surely this is all misplaced endearment.
Sky bluer than your eyes... But only because it is part of your disguise... Surely Heaven pardons each of your lies...No matter how hard each one of us tries...No matter how much each of us cries...Each step that is made is one that your heart denies...
🖤Mr. Joey-Teddy Bear Extraordinaire🖤 You disappeared quicker than the sight of my teddy bear.Taking all that I held dear.Leaving me behind drowning in fear.No screams left for your ears to hear.A road to a future paved in lace oh so sheer.How else could I steer? With view of my former self waving in the rear?Full... Continue Reading →
Sleepy Friend
Last night you were not with me... Where did you go? Did you stay in bed, did you wake up to see? That you were with her and not Me? We never even had a chance, never was there any room for a romance... My hearts keeper does his job well, but my lips shall... Continue Reading →
Good bye to the inflictions that abused me. Good bye to the person I used to be. Good bye to the guilt. For the I have a new life that I rebuilt. Good bye to the insults and insecurities in which consumed me. Good bye to your negativity that you have glued to me. Good... Continue Reading →
Cry your tears... Face your fears... Allow the Will of God to be done... Our childish instincts, are to run... Feelings are meant to be felt... Dealings are meant to be dealt... Gamble your soul, your heart will surely fold... My tellings are told... No longer, will I be left out in the cold...
Your worries are valid. Our tells, yet to callous. "No one has to know." My value left at lower than low. Your lies, folded over my eyes. Perf3ct with every tide. You fold over EVERY eye. With every Tide.
Born of a broken heart. Chambers empty from the start. RED Vessels, vacant from all but sadness. Destined for a thousand miles. For one and all childs. All man, sadden. All men but the Red Man.
My Banshee screams through the night breaking all barriers. Her wings, like that of a scythe. Nothing is left, from her travels, but the dread of life that she called into action. "Stand before me." she hisses. She orders all to spread her infection. After her mission is complete, not a singular bloom will exist.... Continue Reading →
If it were not for my heart, my head would not know any better. If it were not for my soul, my heart would not burn with this fire. If it were not for your love, my heart would cease to desire.
J.S. Jr.
Your image becomes clearer as the smoke dissipates. It's like you have been standing there for all these years, clenched jaw and all. Just awaiting my lowly arrival. You anticipated my failures, and you have come to collect my tears. Such a trophy for you, is it not? Even, in all your glorious wisdom; how... Continue Reading →
"I am not a slave to you, I refuse. You do not manage my thoughts and actions." I demanded. "The very need for those vocalizations, proves otherwise." Bellows Uncle Sam's Puppeteer.
OH Well
"You're the obvious." A statement, looking for a canvas... Youre oblivious... "Through the obvious" I see you. "See through it all" Even through your ur fall... It's my catch to call. Though it seems "You don't see me at all."
Trying
To talk and feel soundless... To portray and feel inadequate... In this world, anger and dislike rise above all... In your world, animosity rules and loving effort falls short for miles... The plate remains bare from your ferocious appetite... Consuming all and gaining nothing...
TBI
It's nothing short of remarkable. How you continue to pick up my pieces of distruction that I leave behind me. Half in which contain myself. I'm not too sure how to remember who I am. Can you please help me find me? I'm cold. I'm alone. I'm lost. And... NOW.. The pieces that I had... Continue Reading →
Rhymes, Writings, and Confessions to Small Crimes 